DISCLAIMER: I am not promoting the use of CBD oil. This is purely my experience. We are all unique and our bodies should be treated as such. Always consult with your doctor before use of anything.
When I was taking prescription pills it felt like my body was being thrown through the wringer. I was exhausted and dealing with nightly episodes of sleep paralysis. I was on Ambien at the time, which lessened my exhaustion but created a plethora of new, even bigger problems. I was also taking Viibryd and Effexor, and the combination of both pills landed me in an ambulance. When all was said and done, I was taking Viibryd alone, and my emotions were still sporadic. For a drug that was supposed to ease my depression, it seemed to only make me worse.
I was fed up with the constant ups and downs from prescription pills. Most pills my doctor prescribed were highly addictive– which explains why I had a hell of a time getting off of them. One day, after a battle of intense sleep paralysis, I decided to quit everything I was taking cold turkey. I wanted nothing to do with pills anymore. On them, I was a zombie I didn’t recognize.
I remained a zombie for weeks afterward as I dealt with the ungodly symptoms of withdrawal. It was during this time I decided to try a different method of treatment– Cannabidiol oil.
Unlike weed; Cannabidiol, or CBD, is completely legal in all 50 states. It does not get you “high” like marijuana does, but the supposed benefits are plentiful. CBD oil is taken by people to help reduce chronic pain, ease anxiety, gain a restful night’s sleep, and the list only goes on.
I was skeptical to try it at first because it is incredibly expensive. The bottle, smaller than my hand, runs about $50-$60 dollars a pop. The good thing is that the bottle seems to last forever, as the dropper makes it handy not to overuse the oil.
Originally, I started taking the oil at night to help me sleep. It did help me doze off quicker and last most of the night without issue. Just out of curiosity, I began putting 2-3 drops in my morning coffee for a few weeks. I’m pleased to say I did notice an overall change in my mood and sleep quality.
I stopped using it for a few days and I crashed. I noticed a major and sort-of alarming change mentally and emotionally when I had stopped taking it. I also began experiencing sleep paralysis shortly after. Whether or not this was directly related to my lack of oil, I don’t know. But I don’t want to experience that again.
Will I go as far to say CBD oil changed my life? I think so. Its a huge weight off of my shoulders to know I am free from prescription pills. CBD oil is relatively affordable, perhaps even cheaper in the long run compared to the cocktail I was taking before. What a relief it is to be able to function during the day and sleep peacefully at night.
As someone that struggles with their mental health, I know I will probably always have issues. I am not going to wake up one day cured and free from my depression. I will always have anxiety. But options such as CBD oil make it easier to handle and lighter on my mind.
For that, I am grateful.